Wednesday, March 3, 2010

free write from 3.3 meeting


look the elixir is hidden in the poison
look, feel...look closer
stand back, allow the ruby precious gem
of your Self Soul Essence to emerge

look, the elixir is in the poison
the poison, what is the poison?
what is the poison?

the poison of...
self degradation
depravation
dehydration
abdication
rejection

the poison of illusion
what is the elixir
all i sense, feel, see is the poison

the poison of the heartbreak
when love breaks down
this is the poison
when love breaks down
when the isness isn't
are my eyes to blame?
am i missing the hidden wholeness
the perfect imperfection
in this ordering?

where does the elixir live?
in reconciling the self
come return to the root of the root of your own self
reveal the diamond in the rough

that has been me
the diamond rough
hidden in the barren land
amidst the tumbled weeds
the discarded junk
abandoned mobiles

the diamond in the rough
the diamond in the rough
the elixir is in the poison
return to the root

falling...following down
down, down
i fear the falling into the poison
fear that i won't find the elixir in time
breathing through a lifetime of rejection

where will the diamond live?
what setting will present the
glory
brilliance
beauty
wholeness of her?

she belongs
she belongs
she belongs
to the mystic's heart
at home in the sacred heart
the elixir is in the poison
return.

Planting the Seeds



Of all the wonderful things in the wonderful universe of God, nothing seems to me more surprising than the planting of a seed in the blank earth and the result thereof. Take that Poppy seed, for instance: it lies in your palm, the merest atom of matter, hardly visible, a speck, a pin's point in bulk, but within it is imprisoned a spirit of beauty ineffable, which will break its bonds and emerge from the dark ground and blossom in a splendor so dazzling as to baffle all powers of description.
—  Celia Thaxter

Sunday, January 17, 2010

MOTHER LOVE

SHE reaches out to embrace me
with absolute love, an emerald green
and placid stream, a shimmering dark mirror.

SHE reaches inside me with
glowing red-gold intensity.
Her iridescent waterfalls and
desert sand patterns
spell out, guidance.

The sound of her bells
ring in the distance,
awaken me from a confusing dream.

SHE washes my feet
with her own spit
and I am cleansed from
centuries of karmic suffering.

SHE stares intently into my mind
unsettling my little thoughts
causing a rock slide,
a new discover of what
I may become.

SHE BELIEVES IN ME

This revelation launches a
thousand ships in my heart,
initiates migrations of butterflies,
a million tiny seeds germinate,
because my mother loves me.

G. Star May 12, 2002

Thursday, January 14, 2010

holy ground of love

From a conversation with my friend Cathy this morning, "for someone to reveal their pain, hurt, fear & anger in relationship is a form of sacred intimacy and reveals and invites a deeper trust...as lovers and partners we can hold a space of grace and unconditional love as our beloved walks through the darkness & finds the gold. This is the holy ground of love. This is a sacred gift we offer to our lover."

(this is also a test to see if our emailing option is working)


Love to all...

Friday, January 1, 2010

MATINS

1-1-2010

1
Somewhere, out at the edges, the night
Is turning and the waves of darkness
Begin to brighten the shore of dawn

The heavy dark falls back to earth
And the freed air goes wild with light,
The heart fills with fresh, bright breath
And thoughts stir the air to give birth to color.

2
I arise today

In the name of Silence
Womb of the Word,
In the name of Stillness
Home of Belonging,
In the name of the Solitude
Of the Soul and the Earth.

I arise today

Blessed by all things,
Wings of breath,
Delight of eyes,
Wonder of whisper,
Intimacy of touch,
Eternity of soul,
Urgency of thought,
Miracle of health,
Embrace of God.

May I live this day

Compassionate of heart,
Clear of word,
Gracious in awareness
Courageous in thought,
Generous in love.

~ John O'Donohue

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Fiber Optic Clearing

Last night I had a dream where I was moving with Matrix-like speed down the hall at my work. I felt in every cell in my body the fullness of my healthy "no" to the patterns of sacrifice and YES to my life beyond the limits of what I have ever known. I literally disintegrated like fairy dust and reconstituted in the dream--right in front of my Department Chair in front of the elevator. It felt so literal and I am still integrating it physically. It felt like was moving in a fiber optic way--back for lifetimes and fully to the present clearning this pattern in a deep, deep way. It would have made a good movie scene.

The Emergent Zone -- Choose Life!


Everything is gestation and bringing forth. To let each impression and each germ of a feeling come to completion wholly in itself, in the dark, in the inexpressible, the unconscious, beyond the reach of one’s own intelligence, and await with deep humility & patience the birth-hour of a new clarity: that alone is living the artist’s life.
~ Rilke ~

We are living in a heightened, concentrated state of emergence on the planet, which I refer to as The Emergence Zone.  The conditions of the collective dark night — the world crisis, the global emergency — are activating a deeper emergence and resurgence of our individual and collective Soul — the consciousness of unconditional love and Oneness.  It is indeed darkest before the dawn and yet the dark grounds of gestation are what give rise to new life, an essential and integral aspect to the bringing forth and rising up.  Without the dark damp earth pressing in on the seed, it will stay dormant.  And so it is with our own personal and collective Soul.  It is in the darkness of the emergency in which we now find ourselves that the great emergence will occur.  The lines between death and birth are blurring, one spilling into and initiating the other. Unplanned and uncontrolled, this bears the mark of the Divine — chaos giving rise to order, darkness revealing a truer and more radiant Light.  Our choice is ultimately a choice-less choice.  Surrendering to and powerfully co-creating with the emergence.  Resistance is ultimately futile and will only serve to increase suffering. 

Yet what is it we are surrendering to?  To the Divine blueprint, the emerging design for a world that works for all.   As we surrender to the cacophony of energies we begin to find ourselves in a state of grace, playing in the symphony of Life in unexpected and exquisite harmony.

This is the rarefied air we are breathing.  This is the sacred space we are occupying.  This is the holy ground that we find ourselves standing on.  This is the universal clarion call to wholeness which presents us with the opportunity to bridge the gap, to make the shift, to be potent leaders in the emerging paradigm.  As emergent leaders we attend to the simultaneous dissolution and evolution of consciousness and condition.  Being fully present to the “emergency” allows us to retrieve the activating seed of the emergence contained within it.  The antidote is in the poison.  The contraction occurs in parallel to the expansion. Embracing these seeming contradictions is what allows us to be fully present and receptive to the conception and ensuing gestation of the next evolution of consciousness and birthing of Divine Love in the real.

This is the Law of Emergence…

The Law of Emergence states that all things are in a state of becoming, gestating and bringing forth in each moment, everything moving and spiraling into creation.  The Law of Emergence operates within the Universal Hologram and is present in the micro and macro experience — one a mirror image of the other, active in our personal lives as well as on the cultural, global and cosmic planes. Mesiter Eckhart referred to this constant birthing of brilliance as God giving birth to God in and through all of Creation. “We are celebrating the feast of the Eternal Birth which God the Father has borne and never ceases to bear in all eternity… But if it takes not place in me, what avails it? Everything lies in this, that it should take place in me.” He goes on to say: “What does God do all day long? He gives birth. From the beginning of eternity God lies on a maternity bed giving birth to the All. God is creating this whole universe, full and entire, in this present moment.”

This is the razor’s edge we find ourselves teetering on.  No longer can we ignore the emergency or the emergence.  For those that have ears, let them hear.  For those that are awake, don’t go back to sleep.  We are here to be emergent leaders, sacred activists and  co-creators in the new paradigm, the new consciousness. We are here to bring heaven to earth through our own transformation, transfiguration and embodied expression. Yes, indeed the world is pregnant with God.

In the words of Yeshua in the Gospel of Thomas, “If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”


What will we choose to respond?  How will we navigate these times?

In and from the essence of the Torah…we shall choose Life! Choose Life! Amen!